After reading my last post, Rafe offered the opinion that it seemed a little less introspective, a little more just churning-it-out to get something up.

And I kind of had to agree with him. I felt the pressure to keep adding content, so I just took an event and transcribed it.

Recently I have found myself pondering this blog. When I started it a year and a half ago, I was in a very different place. I needed an outlet to work through things, to chronicle what was happening to me. As time passed, I settled into myself and became more comfortable with my current understanding of who I am.

Certainly, there are still things I could blog about.

I am still contemplating my faith - what it is these days, and what I want it to be. I feel like I am incubating, and I don't quite know what will emerge.

There are still issues with sexuality and intimacy for me to deal with - Steff wrote a good post on being honest with who you are. While Rafe and I are not fucking, or even getting naked - an expanded and holistic view might indeed argue that we are still experiencing sex together. So what is it really, that is keeping me from "going all the way"? From even, if it comes to that, dating anyone?

There's more that could be said about Rafe and I - how that relationship is doing, strengths, fears, and changes.

But I just don't know how much of that I will be putting out here. In my head, I keep seeing myself closing up this blog. Focusing more on my vanilla blog, and issues of feminism, environmentalism, and faith there.

Certainly, my output (and visitors) have dropped in recent months. Is that a sign? Or merely a season?

Obviously, I'm not quite gone yet, as the blog in its entirety is still here. But that's what I'm thinking these days.